There is so much going on right now, in this crazy season of decisions, transitions, trust and faith. Hard times have caused my plastic mask to lose its luster and crack and its been interesting to see the relationships that have remained constant, that have fallen to the wayside and that have grown in response. The Maria that glitters and sparkles to keep out the probes that might find the insecurity is being replaced by a broken and more honest Maria. Where the newly exposed skin peeks out, it is raw and sensitive to the sun… I find myself hiding from they daylight hours and nursing the tender surface… still not ready to thicken it with exposure, to let commitment and conflict callus over parts that need to do work.
In the process of this growth and hiding, I’ve found myself really turning to my music. Here are the tracks that have been carrying me on their notes and caressing me with their lyrics.
· “All We Are” Matt Nathanson
“I kept falling over/I kept looking backward/I went broke believing/That the simple should be hard”
“I kept falling over/I kept looking backward/I went broke believing/That the simple should be hard”
· “Turn to Stone” Ingrid Michaelson
“Let’s go to sleep with clearer heads/And hearts to big to fit our beds/And maybe we won’t feel so alone/Before we turn to stone”
“Let’s go to sleep with clearer heads/And hearts to big to fit our beds/And maybe we won’t feel so alone/Before we turn to stone”
· “Gravity” Sara Bareillis
“Set me free, let me be/I don’t want to fall another moment on to your gravity/Here I am, and I stand so tall/I’m just the way I’m supposed to be.”
“Set me free, let me be/I don’t want to fall another moment on to your gravity/Here I am, and I stand so tall/I’m just the way I’m supposed to be.”
· “Quequ’un M’a Dit” Carla Bruni
· “Crash and Burn” Savage Garden
“When you feel all alone/ a loyal friend is hard to find/ you’re caught on a one way street/with monsters in your head/ when hopes and dreams are far away/You feel like you can’t face the day”
“When you feel all alone/ a loyal friend is hard to find/ you’re caught on a one way street/with monsters in your head/ when hopes and dreams are far away/You feel like you can’t face the day”
· “Rain”
“its hard to know when to give up the fight/Some things you want will just never be right/ its never rained like it has tonight before”
“its hard to know when to give up the fight/Some things you want will just never be right/ its never rained like it has tonight before”
· “Twenty four” Switchfoot
“All of my symphonies/With twenty-four parts /Life is not what I thought it was /Twenty-four hours ago/Still I'm singing 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You/ I'm not copping out /Not copping out “
“All of my symphonies/With twenty-four parts /Life is not what I thought it was /Twenty-four hours ago/Still I'm singing 'Spirit, take me up in arms with You/ I'm not copping out /Not copping out “
· “You’re Not Alone” Meredith Andrews
“With heartache your closest friend/and Everyone else long gone/you had to face the music on your own/But there is a sweeter song that calls you home singing/you’re not alone, for I am here/let me wipe away your every tear.”
“With heartache your closest friend/and Everyone else long gone/you had to face the music on your own/But there is a sweeter song that calls you home singing/you’re not alone, for I am here/let me wipe away your every tear.”
· “Naked as we Come” Iron & Wine
· “Jueves” La Oreja de Van Gogh
· “Lonely Tonight” Matt Wertz
· “I am still Running” Jon Foreman
“In my darkest fears the rights become the wrongs/ I am still running, I am still running I am still running I am still running “
“In my darkest fears the rights become the wrongs/ I am still running, I am still running I am still running I am still running “
· “Close Your Eyes” Dave Barnes
· “Brandy Alexander” Feist
· “Sober” Pink
“I don’t want to be that girl that has to fill the silence/The quiet scares me cuz it screams the truth”
“I don’t want to be that girl that has to fill the silence/The quiet scares me cuz it screams the truth”
· “May Angels Bring you In” Jimmy Eat World
· “Untitled” Kira Haddock
· “Heard the World” OAR
“Holding my breath tight, trying to keep my head on right./There's a chill in the air, nobody could care /How you're caught up in the fight of your life.”
“Holding my breath tight, trying to keep my head on right./There's a chill in the air, nobody could care /How you're caught up in the fight of your life.”
· “Silent All These Years” Tori Amos
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